But, Oh, That Light!

 

 

 

So there are times when all the light that i’ve been given

is undeniable,

containing certain quantities of Alabama Crimson, Chinese Red,

a hint of Cadmium Green,

but mostly Cultured White.

 

I know that I’ve been given a tempting kind of light

because you’re here –

you’ve always been and ever will.

Sometimes, depending of what day it is, you also might be slightly addicted

to me.

Still,

don’t worry, there’s nothing toxic in the way you feel.

I know it’s off topic, but what we have somehow reminds me of Sting’s song ‘Until’.

Have you listened to it?

Well, if ever you will,

just know that i’m a sucker for romance

and, when nobody watches me, I pretend I’m a princess at a fancy ball

and dance…

and dance…

 

I simply know that I’ve been given light

when I can see you getting free by caging yourself in to me.

Does it make sense?

How can I make it clear?

I’ve never been more curious to see where all of this is going, dear.

 

I often wonder

What kind of twisted souls are we

to always search for lighted parts in others, when all it takes for light to grow on

is mostly body heat and a reasonable amount of vulnerability?

 

We both know that I’ve been given light

and everything I want from you –

for there are times when still i question, still i doubt

that I alone can make it right –

is to turn me into an addicted woman, too.

 

Don’t let me underestimate the quantity of light in you.

 

And nevermind the endless fight between my light and I.

We’re both adults,

we’ll make it through.

Before I choose all the unnecesary words to say and

I go back to what I do,

know

that, all this time, you’ve brought me so much light in all the ways

that no one else was able to.

There’s nothing more I ask of you.

I set you free

although, ironically, I’ve just begun to feel addicted, too.

Just think of me from time to time and send me light.

Don’t fight for me,

I honestly don’t want you to.

But smile a lot and pray,

as I will do the same for you.

 

Rochie verde, thrifted

Cămașă crem, dantelă, Vero Moda

Geantă Promod

Cizme șireturi, thrifted

Trenchcoat crem, Calvin Klein

Șal animal print, thrifted

Green Eyed Kisses,