Fifth

It’s already been two weeks since I stopped smoking weed and I can honestly say I don’t miss it at all. Could be because I’ve replaced it with tobacco – which is worse, I know; the point is I’m trying to make adjustments – give me a break here, I’m trying something. It’s far from easy, I’ve been into it for a long time. I know I’ll eventually have to quit smoking altogether, but I’m not able to set myself free just yet. I’ve also given up coffee and replaced it with hot chocolate. Funny thing is I’ve not missed coffee at all either. Perhaps it’s true what they say, that all the answers are hidden within us and if there’s still silence, it means we just haven’t dug deep enough. The Streets come to mind, with their “If you’re going through Hell, keep going”.

There are many lessons this Coronathing has taught me and they’re still coming, almost every day, like revelations. Among them, the one that stands out the most is that fear is not real. It’s just a projectoin of people’s own insecurity and lack onto others, sometimes involuntarily, most times not. It’s crass manipulation, extortion and the energy with the lowest vibration. It’s the only thing that keeps individuals from reaching their full potential. Ultimately, it’s self-sabotage. And there is no one who can liberate you, but yourself. But you already know that. You’ve already heard this phrase, a gazillion times in a million different ways. Over and over again. But you’ve never done anything about it yet, have you? It seems impossible, I know. Trust me, it’s not.

I dared come to my own conclusions regarding Covid-19 and strangely enough they don’t match the beliefs of the majority, but I won’t tackle this subject here, as this article is about the weird, positive and beautiful side of things, but it will be addressed at some point.

Another thing I’ve learned is that passion, joy, magic, exuberance and wander are within our reach and can be found in the little things, everyday. Of course, there is always a fight to be had, some impossible goals to be achieved, some crazy idea to be put into action, but ultimately it’s all about the journey, not the destination. And this is coming from someone who’s been on a lot of different journeys, but has just recently discovered that there is so much fun and excitement in the unknown, in the not-having-a-clue-where-this-road-may-take-you’s. This is someone who’s never been happier, more free or more fulfilled than at this very moment in time, without a job, a man and having no idea how much longer they’ll be able to pay the rent. And if you were to ask me how come I’m taking things so lightly, I probably won’t be holding a beer in my right hand and taking a nonchalant sip, but I’d give you the same answer Charlie Harper gave Alan in some Two and a half men episode: “Something’ll turn up”.

So…I guess what I’m trying to say is…I’ll be making artsy necklaces for a while.

Green Eyed Kisses,